Monthly Chronicle *The First Layer*

Welcome back Divine Souls. I am happy you have joined me. So lets get back to my “show”. I was wondering where to begin today, and where best to begin but from the beginning…..so here we go

I was born and raised in Montreal, Quebec, Canada. At the Royal Victoria Hospital. What better place to give birth to royalty. I was born into a Portuguese family, technically from the Azores Islands, 9 beautiful exotic islands in the Atlantic Ocean. Which I believe is strongly linked to my Atlantean and Lumerian roots. I am the eldest of 3 siblings.  Which is an important point to add seeing how each sibling plays a very important role in the family dynamic. For example being the eldest, we tend to take on the brunt of the “heavy work” such as feeling overly responsible, over controlling and overprotective. The middle child is usually the one who feels left out or inexistant and can cause different traumas such as abandonment and not feeling like being enough. The youngest is usually the one who takes the role of grounding us all, and never being heard or fully understood. All very difficult, yet different roles, that we have all taken on together and contracted before coming to this Divine Earth. 

Like many, my childhood was very noisy and a blur. My parents, like all other humans, had their baggage and traumas from their childhood. And through QHHT Ive learned that from the ages of 0-7 years old, we are in theta state. (Theta brain waves is a state of deep relaxation, that we are in twice daily , before we awaken and before we fall asleep. And is used in QHHT to access your subconscious mind) Which means as young babies and children, we are constantly programming the environment around us. So we pick up our parents' traumas, that they picked up from their parents etc, etc. This is how generational “curses”, traumas and habits get passed down the line…. Understanding this helped me tremendously on my journey of accepting what is.

Like many of us when we look back at our childhood and growing years much of it is a blur. Yet for me it always seemed more than the normal person. I remember bits and pieces, certain events but it was always foggy and never clear. I felt like I was an observer of my own reality. Which always made me feel like an outsider. This always bothered me, so It was one of my main questions when I had my first QHHT session.

My answer was astonishing and until today i am fully understanding and integrating it spoonful at a time.

In the beginning part of my first QHHT session my higher self showed me bits and pieces of past lives. I was able to feel who and where I was, yet I was always an observer in every scene. Which I thought was odd because it wasn’t how I understood others to have seen past lives. Nonetheless I went with it.. When my practitioner asked to speak with my Higher Self and asked why I was shown the scenes I was shown, I was astonished. (Keep in mind the higher self speaks in third person)

Christine: “why did you show her the scenes you did today? How does that correspond to her present life time she is living now?”

Abby: “she feels like an outsider” 

C: “why is that? What is causing her to feel like an outsider?”

A: “her vibrations are higher”

C: “so this is the truth?”

A: “what is the truth?”

C: “that she’s an outsider?”

A: “yes”

C: “is this a good thing?”

A: “yes”

C: “what is it that you want her to know about this, that can help her?”

A: “you can’t be on the same level as other people, if your going to help them”

C: “yes, true”

A: “so you need to feel like one, in order to be able to help people. If you feel like them, you can’t help them”

C: “right its like solving a problem with a problem, kinda thing?”

A: “yes, I don’t think she would know how if she was like them”

C: “ mmhm interesting”

A: “she has to feel like an outsider”

C: “is that part of her path in this lifetime?”

A: “yes”

C: “how can she have more of a positive and or peaceful experience with this?”

A: “she has to accept it”

C: “does she have any fears around this?”

A: “accepting it?”

C: “yes”

A: “no. She needs to fully understand it to accept it. She needs to fully understand everything in order to accept it. Things are so fuzzy , she can’t see all the time, or sees but doubts.”

C: “yes that’s why she came today, she feels blocked.”

A: “she needs to heal others of what she needs healing from, so she needs to experience it, understand it and accept it. It’s all part of her plan.”

This is how the higher self communicates. It takes into consideration what the ego can absorb and understand, in order for it to integrate the knowledge.

So as you can clearly see, what I believed to have struggled with my whole life was actually in my Highest Good. And I am learning this with everything else in my life. So now that I understand it, I can accept it and try not to allow my emotions get the best of me. I mean lets be honest,I’m still human and have my moments. That’s what makes us human, emotions. After all, we are a spirit living a human experience, and not a human living a spiritual experience.

I hope this helps you, to bring peace and some understanding into your life.